THE NIGHT THE DREAM ENDED

I started to read book of poetry. The first poetry book I've read was 'THE MAN IN THE FIRE' by A.B. Hashim. It was very interesting. Yet very deep. The book was belong to a friend of mine. Juain Izni. I can see that she loves this kind of books. She looks very pleased with all this poetry. I bet she could become a poetry writer one day. 

Here I wanna share something that I've read today. The title is as shown above. 

"One thing you've got to know. It's hurts."

"I'm sorry, Angus. Please forgive me."

"Your apology is very a simple thing for me to accept. That's how special you are, Fay. You have a special right to come and go into my life. I remember the day you came running into my arms and later, I stood there watching you run away from me right into him. And now, you're back I don't have a clue of what I'm gonna do next. God knows how I'd wish I could just slam the door right in front your face that night, but I just can't, there's something inside me holding me on from doing something like that. And that is called love, my dear."

"I love you, dear. I'm sorry for everything. Being away from you, I suffered. I don't want that anymore. All I want is one more chance, Angus. Please, I beg you"

"My thirst, my sleep, my wandering and my loneliness, by God, I swear there's only you that I can give my full loving to, but I am with Rene now. You need to understand that. I've changed. I'm trying to be a good man now. I'm trying to be a good father. At least, gimme this chance to change, Fay.I've been waiting for you, but you;d wasted too much time with him, precious time which we could be happily spent together. It was your choice to be with him, for that I hold no grudges. Please forgive me, my dear, for I have no choice, I love you, God knows how deep my love is for you. The circumstances just do not allow us to be together right now."

"Will you ever come back?"

"The future is not for us to know, Fay. Give me up, dear. Let me go the same way I had let you go. I know it hurts. Trust me, I know best of how it can get to be left behind, but you must be strong. You must be strong, my dear. You shall get through this. We will get through this.I would love believe that. There's gonna be someone. And surely, he'll be better than me, trust me, dear. You're gonna be fine, you're gonna marry a better man. Please don't waste your time on me, not anymore. You deserve someone better."

"Angus, please" 

"Good bye, Fay. I'm moving out of the apartment soon. Please do not try to find me again."

So, Life isn't easy. Someone you love may be it might come and go. Based on this story, I found out that Angus was a very gentle man. He knows what to do. He's a matured enough. He was leaving behind the love of his life; tearful in sorrow. His precious lover. The love was a complicated tangible evidence of it. He walked away with tears and memories no drinks could possibly help to wipe off. He know he have to be strong and keep on believing that something good will come out of this eventually. He only need a little time to wake up. Tomorrow does not need to come too soon. He's a very good example for men out there. He have lost the most precious thing in his life, and yet he still keep on living his life with a fresh memory. 

Till then... Good nights.

                                                                    

                           

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Over you

Hello Earthlings. It's been a while yeah. First and foremost, I thank God for the blessed days I  had through this week. I've gone this few days and yeppp I was busy preparing for my coming competition. I'll compete in two event. Air Pistol and Sport Pistol. Hmmmph, I will shoot tomorrow and this coming Sunday. So, do wish me luck. Hoping for the best tomorrow and rest of the day. 

Well, I found this song. Over you by Miranda Lambert. She's a great singer though. I heard that this song was co-written by Blake Shelton dedicated to his late brother. He didn't have enough courage to sing it. He got his wifey Miranda Lambert to sing it. The song was very deep and meaningful. So, give it a try.. Lend your ears to this beautiful song.

Here you go.. 

till then.. Good Nights -xo-

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JUNE

HI EARTHLINGS!

Jam di telefon menunjukkan pukul 1.40 a.m. Tidur masih tidak dapat menguasai diriku. Mata belum terlelap. Fikiran jauh melayang. Hmmmmmmmmph at this moment, I was sitting on my bed and thinking about the next days. What's gonna happen in the future. Fikiranku buntu. Aku buntu. 

As time pass by, the growth will continue. We'll become older. Age is not a matter. What matter most is the maturity level of human. Tup tap tup tap here come to the June. June will be a busy month for me. Well, it is because few competitions will be held and preparation for further study in Pre-U. To make it clear, June is the month to prepare everything. I've to prepare my self for Singapore Open that will be held this coming July. Aim high so you can reach higher. 

I miss home. I miss my family. I miss my pups. 

Life must be much better at home. But I chose to be here. To achieve my dream. Dream as a athlete. As a shooter. Life must go on. Few months left until I'm going back home with Bacg. We'll be back in August(most probably) . It's about two months from now. You're strong girl, Juds. Yes indeed. She is a strong girl. I've to be patience. 

My imagination take me away. When I'm home, I'm gonna play with my pups every days. Feeding and bathing will be my duty. Only God know how bad I miss them. They were so small back then when I was home last time. They were too cute and adorable. I just can't resist the cuteness. Being away from them is suck. I couldn't say much. The feeling is sucks. So, can you imagine how bad I miss them. Yeah. 

I'm tired. Tired all the way from Batu Pahat to Bukit Jalil. My butt was cramp sitting in the bus for 4++ hours.

Gotta get my sleep now. Till then... 

Good Nights -xo-

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Sekian lama menunggu waktunya.

Yello Earthlings.

First and foremost, I'm very sure that every women ever experienced 'that' pain. It is also known as Dysmenorrhea which women have to deal with it every month. Every days and nights I'm struggling with this pain. Guys, you never imagine how hard we, the ladies struggling with the pain every month. Setiap siang dan malam ku menahan sakit yang dianugerahkan oleh Tuhan. Esehhhh! Ku sudah tidak menahannya lagi. Dikala tengah malam yang sejuk, aku bangun. Bangun ke jamban . Namun seorang wanita itu pasti mampu untuk menahannya. 

I've been struggling with the pain since last week. Struggling in pain for the whole week. 

Back pain. Uncomfortable belly. All I can feel is pain. But I still manage to wait for 'it'

Somehow, I can say that I'm a strong girl because I can deal with the pain during my training session. 

Yes indeed, Judith is a strong girl. 

Well here is the thing. Today. In the morning, I woke up and finally 'it' came out.

Tenang terasa di jiwa ini kerana selepas ini aku akan meninggalkan kesakitan yang kutanggung selama seminggu. 

But the pain will not gonna end that easy. It will takes one or two days (at least..) 

Thank God for what You've planned today. 

Om insan poh vagu, kopivosian om kotobian tadau tagazo do kaamatan kumaa saviavi walis doid sodu om id somok. Au zou nogi songkuo kaanu do moboos kadazan tii tapi au ih boh kahasa nung cuba cuba kaa boh. au zou nogi nabati moboos lah. kaanu zou moboos do 75% ingkaa lah. It is better than nothing kaa boh. Ka'm otopot nogi boh ih. Ka'm kaa dii aki ku songkuo nopo ginumu do nokobalajal ko moboos kadazan, kada noh maamalu do moboos id boos dotokou sondii. Nung kahasa nga nimangan do pombotulan ih boos kaa. Om iti noh iti do moboos zou nopo. Nung kahasa zou nopo. Mai zou noh ajalon kio ^^  

Kounsikou. Good nights xo

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TODAY

Today.

Since I woke up in the morning, I was haunted by my problems. 

One by one coming through my mind.

Today.

Everything was planned easy. 

It was my routine woke up in the morning, eating breakfast and spending time with my Pistol.

Today. 

We had that tough and bad time together.

Life is not that easy as you ever imagine. 

This world is not gonna end yet. We still have to stand strong and prove to them that we're worth living in this world.

Today.

People make a lot of mistake. People would never run from any mistake. 

Tipulah kalau kamu tidak pernah membuat kesilapan, kerana sesungguhnya manusia itu dicipta untuk menuruti kebenaran pasti ada kesilapan yang dilakukan.

Well said. 

Today. 

I felt bad about my self. I felt bad. Bad until no word can describe how bad it is.

Every single moment you had it, tough and bad. Remember! Others might having tougher moment than you. 

Remember! Every bad and good time you have be grateful to almighty God. Because of His will you still can catch your breath every second in your life.

Remember God wherever you are. Because God are great. He created us beautifully to live in this world. 

Be thankful for what you get now, tomorrow, sooner or later. I thank you God for the life You've given to me. Thank you God for my family and relatives, my friends, my dearest bacg. 

Till then... Good night earthlings. xo

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The girl is back!

Yello Earthlings. well, lama betul saya tidak berblogging . Anyway, there's something came up that make me couldn't update this blog all this while. As I entered my blog last night I felt like something wrong with the entries. haha but I'm not sure what is wrong with it. So, I deleted all my entries. Well, I would like to keep my blog nice. I will update this blog as soon as possible.

Tobpinai ku ngavi, nokoikot noh timpu ih indadon tokou. Kanou noh mogisompuu do mamalamai do tadau tagazo diti. Om mazo do kosivatan diti mamason zou kotobian tadau tagazo do kaamatan kumaa diozu toinsanan. Ahansan daa tokou saviavi kaanu mugad ponombuhui lamai kaamatan hud Hongkod Koisaan. Momikil noh nung moginum kio. Ondomon noh ih koginavaan tokou ngavi doid daamin toi nombo nopo. Aramaiiitiii ^^.

Kopisanangan kumaa dikoyu ngawi xo

Iti noh Unduk Ngadaus 2013 ngavi hansanon mantad seluruh Sabah.

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